I think, therefore we have nothing in common

"Oppsie, I'm naked "

After much thought and not wanting to do work, I've made a new one of these. I need change in my life anyway. Might as well start with what my fans enjoy the most. Here it is- http://mellerbeller.blogspot.com/

It was suggested that I use capitals and I think I can spare the extra couple of minutes to do so. I guess....
The last time I was at the Town Ballroom, I got sick because we got there extremely early. ANYWAY, even though I was stuck in toll booth traffic (my 2nd favorite kind of traffic) for 10 minutes, I made it on time. I wouldn't have minded missing The Almost .When the drummer came out, I could have sworn he was a chick. I was wrong. The singer was somewhat feminine but he's married. Go figure. He looks like a male version of Hayley Williams. They bored me. The only exciting part of their set was an Almost catfight with the girls in front of me. I was waiting for it but nope. Nothin. For their last song, the singer gave Jesus a shout out. I liked that.
I haven't seen The Starting Line in 5 years. They played nothing like the first time I saw them. I only know their Say It Like You Mean It album so therefore I only knew Hello Houston, Up and Go, and Best of Me. I was able to recognize Island which was the best song. They brought Borat on stage. That was exciting. "I want you guys to bounce like they do in 8 mile". At that first show (which was my first concert excluding Backstreet Boys in 1998), my friend brought me front and center. The second they started playing, a massive pit opened up and I got lost and my phone got trampled on. I learned my lesson. None of that happened during their set tonight. Towards the end, it sort of did but barely. Eek.
Paramore was impressive. I was a little bit skeptical but luckily they were better than I expected. For A Pessmist..., Born For This, Emergency, Never Let This Go (my favorite), Fences, Let the Flames Begin, Faces In Disguise, When It Rains, crushcrushcrush, Pressure, Here We Go Again (second favorite), My Heart, Misery Business. I'm missing two. I would definitely see them again.

Highlights of break-Frisbee golf with Dennis! in Mt.Kisco that doubled as a treasure hunt with a real treasure map. Saving two deer, roadtrip to Springfield,MA. Thanksgiving dinner at the Bradleys', roadtrip to Stamford, CT for some DQ only to find out its CLOSED for the season until the SPRING!, spending the night in Syracuse. And FURRRRYYYYYYYYYYY!!!
I got to miss this . Trig.com has footage from Roseland which I missed as well. But luckily I got to see this .
My tribute to The Explosion for my lighting project was a hit.
I really like ebay.
I realize that they're all just replacements only they're failing. I'm not going to fight it anymore. If it gets to be unbearable, I'll start smoking or something. Whatever happens, happens.

i got there (irving plaza which is now known as the fillmore?) late and didn't have to suffer through static age. they had hecklers. i've only seen the street dogs once and that was at warped tour which i don't count so pretending that this was my first time, i'd say i was satisfied. their following is reminiscent of that of dropkick (hmmm i wonder why) and you can tell that mike feels what he's singing. or maybe he's just under some influence when he's on stage. i'd like to think not. he climbed the part of the wall that juts out randomly just like pete from fob did a few years ago when i saw them open for mest. only pete jumped from it and this was pre hoodies and penis shots. i saw dropkick for the first time there as well....memories. fighter, you alone, in defense of dorchester, back to the world, drink tonight, tobe's got a drinking problem, fading american dream, and so on. they were fun. they all wore the same hat. i love uniforms.
i don't see how you can mosh to tiger army but i honestly should know by now that it doesn't make a difference. people will mosh to those hippies something corporate so why not for anyone else? i wonder if you have to get that specific haircut they all have to be in the band....i really need to make a concert costume. i'm clearly not punk enough for these shows. true romance, never die, cupid's victim, annabel lee, santa carla twilight, rose of the devil's garden, lunatone, tempatation and others. the last time i saw them was at bb king's with the unseen and i enjoyed this performance more than that one. i thought my 7 hour drive only a few hours before would make me anxious to get the hell out of there but luckily i got my moneys worth.
i'd much rather go to shows here then there.
rocky....
meaghan and mary being home at the same time as me=double slammin
smore pizza=complete crap
stuff due monday and tue=lame
porch=a nice escape
busy all the time=nice distraction
bringing the laptop to theatre history=staying awake
swimming=relaxing
selling stuff on ebay=richer

uhhhhh idk if it's the school or just that particular area of the state but RIT had some weiirdddossss there tonight. holy crap. i had a field day making fun of them all.stick boy. word. RIT's tech guys had tech shirts. clearly i'm at the wrong school. first band was schoolyard heroes but i was late and only caught their last song. from what i did hear, the singer had a cool voice and the things she was doing with it impressed me. i shall check them out later. i was expecting to hate and be completely bored with monty are i but i actually liked them. i even bought a cd. awww snap. even though most of the songs sound the same, and they shouldn't talk in between songs because they're lame ("give it up for beer"), they're alright to watch. for their song 'just in time', they had couples come up on stage and dance and it was so incredibly cheesy and cute i couldn't help but grin. gross. i have nothing to say about amber pacific. they were...ordinary. ANYWHO, sum 41 entered to carmina burana. hehe. 1.underclass hero 2.hell song 3.motivation 4.we're all to blame 5.walking disaster. "sorry moms and dads, your kids will be hearing a lot of bad words tonight". 6.machine gun 7.king of contradiction 8.in too deep 9.over my head 10.makes no difference (favorite song of theirs ever) 11.pieces 12.march of the dogs 13.still waiting 14.my direction (2nd favorite ) 15.fat lip 16.pain for pleasure. i really wished they played more stuff off of underclass hero. i absolutely loveeeee it. but $25 shirts is a bit ridic. and watching deryck run around is always a pleasure. they're the only band i've seen, besides dropkick, that is always just completely on. there's never a "bad show" or "decent show" with them. and on top of that, they're the first band i've ever seen live so there is sentiment there as well. i could say that if it wasn't for that show and hearing a particular song november 2002, i would be going to school elsewhere, majoring in history and playing soccer in hopes of going pro...even though women's soccer sucks.
speaking of, my fears are correct and college is matching up exactly with high school and what went on certain years. just different people. so much for a surprise.
shit rocky is huge.
damn that dress really is a hit with the public.
wow i hate frisbee.
booo the only local band i've ever liked broke up.
whoa i miss the chance. mainly the manager and that darling agent who shall remain nameless.
holy moley i almost shot a 3" nail into my foot.
yay swimming.
i feel like i'm in another state when i'm up here. so maybe i will go home in october after all.

i hate the knitting factory. i truly do. eesh.
i liked the ergs. within the first minute of the first song i was like "wow". the bass player was a little awkward though.
modern life is war i did not like. i don't like screaming and growling. but i'd say about 80% of the people there did.whatev.
so it was the explosion + dave hause from the loved ones. just like the last time i saw them. "that's all of our money in that bag. don't fucking touch that bag!". matt was drunk the whole time and it got worse as the show progressed. 1.reactor 2.here i am 3. new song 4. the ideal 5. terrorists 6.filthy insane. "JK LOL just K" 7.broken down and out 8.nycd. "that may be the worst song written in the US besides alien ant farm songs" "i'm the coolest motherfucker you'll ever meet, don't throw shit at me" "i can barely read at this point" "that shit is definitely not a fiero but a ferrari and i'm talking about my dick" 9.new song 10.points west. "my set list is like in code, i can't read it. thanks assholes" 11.if you don't know 12.tarantulas attack. "no throwy" "my phone number is 555-beer" 13.image of a son 14.true or false 15. novocaine 16.deliver us 17.these times 18.no revolution. they had a cute group hug right before revolution. sweetest thing ever. then the place went bananas for the last song. i'm pretty sure dave hause crowd surfed more than anyone. they had some of the guys from lifetime there too for the last song wreaking havoc on stage. dave h. carried chris around on his shoulders. that was fun.
every band should play every show like its their last.
i missed faster than fashion at crannell on thursday. booooo. i'm missing lots of stuff. but i feel freerer ever since i went to the registrar.
my neighbors are being loud and obnoxious now.

yay chance.
faster than fashion was good. i really enjoyed them. i generally don't like local bands at all but they're definitely an exception. hopped on over to the chance for what i think was stolen crown. they were alright i guess. got to run lights for them. yay. then ran back over to the loft to see the last 5ish minutes of searching for skylines. i didn't hate them either. back over to the chance for more board work. i think it was for cast your stones. they were fun. i kinda wandered after that. went down to crannell and almost immediately left. the few times i went down there, i wasn't impressed. soooo back upstairs to the balcony and watched some of pillowface's set. i didn't care for them. i kind of stopped going to the loft at this point because the bands were eh and it was +100 degrees. oh but the band frank was runner for and gave him a free shirt in return for his services, ran their own lights. when i saw what they were using and how they were controlling them, i loled. human x were ridic. the music was alright but not something i would go out and buy or see again. the drummer wore a purple mesh shirt and had devil horns on his head. then for one of the songs, the singer had this girl come up on stage who just turned 16 and sang to her. josh said it was awkward. i said i liked her tiara. and that's basically it. i went in the office and heard the sleeping and was not interested. leaving was a real adventure.
i only saw 4 deer and two cops catch someone riding dirty.
i can't wait for next week even though i'm going to miss working jellythorne heights. shoot.
maybe street dogs tomorrow, as in later today.
mini golf has made my hatred for people go up to an all time high. the public is illiterate.
where's heather?

last night was fun. long. but fun. i met a lot of people but i only remember two names. chuck says that if i'm ever around for a sold out show, he's going to put me on stage to introduce the bands and get the crowd going. he's quite the comedian. i don't remember the first band. three card monte was good. the bass player broke a string. funny. pipebomb was also good but they're not my cup of tea. the singer was....well i don't know how to describe him. i guess he's good at dancing? i didn't stick around to watch junket. instead i went around with abby on her rounds. i saw the ending though. they did a cover of "killing in the name of" by rage against the machine. it was one of the best covers i've ever seen. so yeahhh. that was my first showwww. didn't get home till 2:30. whenever the people there find out where i live and that i'm an intern, they say "wow, what the fuck are you doing here?" the taconic at night is not something i enjoy being on. to stay awake i counted deer. i saw 11 of those motherfuckers. i get to go again tonight. hurray.
thursday max and i went to go see the daily show. we got there before they even put the ropes up so we were guaranteed to get in.unfortunately the guys on line behind us were annoying. the things that came out of their mouths were fucking stupid. then in the waiting room they were behind us again. luckily once we were in the studio, we were nowhere near them. so yeah. its smaller in real life. they had a comedian come out beforehand to get to crowd pumped. he was actually prettttyy funny. a lot of audience related stuff. sadly i don't remember his name. then jon came out and took questions from the audience. he's really nice along with everyone else who works there. the show for that day was a bit slow but still funny. the guest was angelina jolie. the second she came out, everyone clapped but there was almost a hushed gasp coming from everyone. she looks like the malnourished kids she visits in africa. her arms are the size of my wrists. no joke. she looked terrrible. and her face isn't even that pretty. when she smiles or laughs, this huge vein pops out of her forehead. wow. when she stood up to leave, and she turned sideways, she disappeared. seriously. no curve to her whatsoever. terrible. terrible. terrible. even max doesn't want to bang her anymore. i had fun. i'm definitely going to try and go back again. on the train home we saw jesse lagle. caught up and all that shenanigans.
11 deer.
good charlotte is hopping on the justin timberlake tour. i would go in a heartbeat if it wasn't at the garden and the cheapest tickets were $60something. oh well.

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+44 terrif
fob, sucky music that sounds exactly like p!atd but decent production wise. pyrotechnics, what can beat that? but i only stayed to watch them for a half hour. cobra starship is not too shabby. too bad the academy is started out with the only song i knew of theirs. paul wall was ridic. i like listening to that type of music but watching it is a whole other story.
summer is thumbs up thus far.
the chance this week was chill. got to photoshop some stuff. yayyyy.
the catchphrases are def. catching on. slammin.
concerts yayyyy
gas booooo
mini golf yayyyy
emotional rollarcoaster booooo
classy dinners yayyy
males who are pigs boooo
bed before 12 yayyyy

went down early with the twins who were going down to eat dinner with their bro. "i am seriously freaking out right now". i hate,hate, HATE, getting clothes wet. getting clothes wet is number four on my list of things that irk me. wet jeans are the worst. sooooo it was raining on the way down and the whole time we were walking around times square. oh hurray. part ways and go to bb king's. i like it there. it's a nice place. fearless vampire killers i believe was the first band. consisted of cromag members or something like that. a guy from the misfits was there. i don't care. they gave him a shout out so i'm giving him one too. i didn't like them. there is nothing to hardcore "music". what gets me is that they go on and on about how pop punk is all the same when in fact all this hardcore crap sounds exactly the same. i could do it. i really could. maybe i will. H2O was grrreaaaat. thicker than water."give it up to those two motherfuckin hummingbirds" "i was on american idol" toby had his son come out. i swear to god. cutest flippin kid EVER! rolse model after that. my favorite song of theirs. they played a couple of lines from 5 year plan but stopped to sing happy birthday to rusty. the grim reaper came out with a wheelchair that had a cake on it and a tombstone. cute. "here today, gone tomorrow". family tree where tobey had his son come out again to sing. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. he's like two or three. god. he was running around with the grim reaper mask on. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww again. "stop talking, start rocking". one life one chance, guilty by association. give or take a few others. really good. i think toby chews more gum then me. the woman next to me, after they got off, was either really really drunk or really really sick because she was in and out of passing out. she fell at least three times. the guy that she was with should have dragged her out but it took the sound guy calling security over and him throwing her over his shoulder to get rid of her. crazzzzzyyyy. all throughout rancid i had a crazy asian next to me. i wish i had my video camera. i don't post any of the stuff i tape online but that i would have put on youtube. speaking of, check out punchline's youtubes. ruby soho, nihilism,journey to the end, old friend, maxwell murder (with a pretty sweet matt solo), operation ivy's unity, the wars end (with toby on the side with his offspring aka son aka adorable child), listed mia, olympia wa, bloodclot, adina, hooligans, hoover st. (which they tried to start twice and finally got it on the third try. really funny), st.mary, time bomb, fall back down (acoustic), to have and to have not (acoustic),roots radicals, out of control, and like 5 others. twas a good show.
tuesday went whaling with the bradleys and their madre at cape cod. i say whaling because it sounds more interesting than whale watching. i know you're asking why the hell i went when i'm goddamn afraid of the ocean. well the answer is simple. i die, i die. i was actually relatively calm. saw some whales. people went ballistic everyime they saw a tail. a tail! jesus. after one of the humpbacks did a flip in the water, i basically stopped watching. you see that you see everything. no big deal. on the way there we passed hyannis, ma. that almost beats coxsackie, ny. almost.
the parental unti claims we're leaving at the "crack of dawn" on saturday. i say meet you guys there. i am in no rush to leave. besides, what's supposed to be a 7 hour drive will end up being 12 because they like to stop at the casinos along the way. i figured out that they don't like me being so far from home, so they're making sure there's no more money to use for college. i'm onto them.
the city of white plains put a curb in front of our driveway. a curb.
girl power.
the band i love most is going on tour. the band that got me liking all the other bands is going to be performing live. i will not get to see them. i've come to terms with this.
BUT i do in fact get to see ANDRE RIEU in may and i'm so so so happy about it.

morgan and i have decided that any show that is over an hour away, is not worth attending. unless we stay over night. which we didn't and it was a good show but i'm not doing that again. well if someone else drives then i will. i won't discuss traffic. you all know my beef with it. the welch boys and a global threat were the opening bands. i have no idea which one was first. i do know that whoever it was didn't sound bad. they were okay. just okay. the dad band. that's what i called them. two of them looked old enough to be my dad. jumping around. really silly. we saw the bull family and repeatably saw them throughout the night. the second band sucked. lots of screaming. if they're allowed to get away with that then i can goddamn be in a band. there was a midget! excuse me, little person, dwarf, hobbit. whatever they go by now. morgan wants to add "he looked like he was ready to party. he is really small. i wonder if everything is small like his penis for example." here is a funny story about midgets
we people watched during that set. people crowdsurfed while they were setting up for dropkick. one of them hit the lights! so they started hoisting people so they could hang from the not so stable beams. idiots. one guy hung upside down and fell. another tried to show off and do pull ups. or maybe it was the same guy....then he started doing flips. jesus.finally finally finally dropkick came on. fanfrickentastic. always give a good show. we left after kiss me, i'm shitfaced because albany isn't a half hour away. fields of athenry, the dirty glass, kiss me i'm shitfaced, do or die, never alone, barroom hero, fightstarter karaoke, finnegan's wake, boys on the docks, the gauntlet, the rocky road to dublin, good rats, spicey, heroes from our past, devil's brigade, gang's all here, caps and bottles (i think), warrior's code, your spirit's alive, the walking dead, citizen cia, i'm shipping up to boston, take it and run. i def. didn't get all of them.the ride home we saw some ghosts and dracula. no joke.
playland was soooo much fun. i proved that i'm a natural born killer. and then i got injured. don't go on the crazy mouse. it sucks.
then had a relaxing day at the pool and then the beach. hardly anyone was there. perfect.
accepted was a great movie. go see it.
i was going to share a good story about what happened friday night but writing it isn't nearly as funny as telling it. ask meaghan. maybe she'll even throw in how she was laughing while i almost had a brain aneurism.
channing tatum excites me in many ways.
punchline are the kings of youtube.
i seem to have more in common with my sister than i thought.
i am seven pictures away from reaching my goal.

i took caitlin to her first real show, besides warped. my ears kept popping on the way up. american black lung was first. i could have sworn i saw somewhere that my favorite band ever, transition, was going to be there but they weren't. oh well. anyway, the black lung was not good. i did not like them. the singer was kinda gay. i don't mean he sucked kind of gay but actually likes the cock kind. i could be wrong, but that's how he came off. "dudes, dudettes, this is going to be an awesome show tonight. we're gonna play some tunes." he was barefoot. whole wheat bread came on after. kept that shit thug. when they were checking the mics, the singer said peanut butter jelly time. it made me miss feather. the bass player had a bandana over his face. definitely thug. what could be more thug than that? oh wait, his pants were passed his ass. i love that. not. it baffles me. why bother wearing pants? with a belt on top of that. jeez. they were ripped though. so it was during this set that i saw someone from school. that's in the theatre department. fucking weeeeirrdddd. my eyes were not deceiving me, it really was johnny. ended with the police song which i was familiar with. streetlight next. they were greaaaaaaattttttt.too bad they didn't play for longer. a bit disappointed that they didn't play we are the few. my fav. oh well. mxpppxxxxx. didn't have mike's crotch anywhere near my face this time. my life story, tomorrow's another day, responsibility,heard that sound,kkk took my baby away. "what'd you guys lose? a glass eye? we have a pirate patch in the back" "pirate music never hurt anybody, unless you get stabbed" party my house..., buildings tumble, middlename, pxpx, like two lines from freebird, summer of 69, doing time, next big thing,chick magnet, should i stay or should i go. the first time i saw them they played this. it was during this song that i fell in love with tom. punk rawk show. i'm forgetting some. the whole wheat guy came out for a song to make them more gangsta. it worked. didn't stay for reel big fish. don't care for them enough to. the only song i really like of theirs is sellout. so we left. the taconic at night sucks. no deer. booo. we had one fly death. i saw it go splat on my windshield. it was cool. i hope to witness something like that again.
according to my grandmother and her sister, my great grandmother is 104. i called them liars.
i think i broke my toe.
morgan and i went on a nice date at the dam. we took maggie. she didn't try to bite anyone but spent the time sunbathing.
myspace bulletins, the ones where people ask for comments and crap, annoy me. but what am i not annoyed with?
i agree with the weather as of late.
harold and i make plans but never follow through. maybe, someday, we will see each other again.maybe.
justin timberlake is coming to my favorite place ever, roseland, the day after my birthday. guess where i'll be. andre rieu is also going on tour but i'm not here in april. he IS coming to toronto during dead week in december.....i asked wendy to come up. lol. because there ain't no way in hell anyone will go see that. so far social d is a no. booo. not like i need to spend the money anyway.
i watched old stage crew videos lastnight. and who should i see today for a total of 35 seconds?? CHERYLLL!!!!!!! that's right max. call me a 5ft annoyance all you want.
( Onto book number 4 )

warped was yesterday. it was better than last year but not better than the one before that. then again, no show can beat those two days. didn't make a single wrong turn to brooklyn to pick up the anti-you. we did get lost trying to get out of brooklyn though. jenna doesn't know her own neighborhood. traffic was well. get there and can't find where the hell to buy tickets. finally find out and head over. see JESSI, who i haven't seen in almost two years. she had an extra ticket so, oh wow, i got in for free. that's the second time since i've known her that she's done that. the other time being the young and hopeless tour. caitlin and i get separated from them when we got in. we went shopping, they went to see...as i lay dying? something with "as" in it. or "dying". i don't know. first band we saw was less than jake. kind of great. look what happened, overrated, johnny quest...,soundtrack of my life, plastic cup politics. i'm missing some. "we're from budapest hungary" "come up here and show everyone your perm.with this haircut, can you dance retarded for this next song?" "let's slow things down a bit. take a valium, smoke some pot." we were sorta up front for them. it was nuts. and sweaty. had a break after that before the next band. more shopping and free stuff. the weather was decent. not scorching hot. some wind. not unbearable. thank god. find jenna, jessi and the bf tyler. separate again. go see bouncing souls. didn't kill ourselves so we chilled in the back. that song, private radio,gold song,sing along forever,lean on sheena,kid, hopeless romantic, lamar vannoy, east coast fuck you, true believers. again i'm forgetting some. i was so happy because the last time i saw them, all they played was new stuff and i wanted to hear old. well i got that yesterday. greg was wearing longsleeves. crazy. "fuckin jersey, jesus christ". immediately after them, went allllllllllllllllllll the way to the other side to see gogol bordello!!!!!! gahhh!!! caitlin loved their set. that made me happy. jenna saw some of it and hated it. that's okay because i let her stay to see saves the day and i hated them. so we're even. sally, not a crime, 60 revolutions, start wearing purple,and two other songs. eugene harrassed the security to wear purple. not a long set. really really like them. a lot. my pictures turned out alright. little disappointed that damone didn't play even though those fucktards were supposed to be there. drive home took way too fucking long. the lowest price we found for gas was $2.83. i threw up. couldn't find that station on the way back. so we settled for $2.89. new york sucks.i won't talk about traffic but it was all the goddamn cashers' fault. either tolls should be abolished or people should be forced to get ezpass.ugh.
OH YEA! we didn't stay for nofx. i have decided that i don't like them. no particular reason. i just don't.
i have 17 bites on my feet from something. its not enjoyable.
last week of camp. thank god.
i can go to those shows in oct. just have to find someone to go to social d with. i'm not driving to cleveland alone. or maybe i will. i die, i die. so i'm not going home for fall break.
feather leaves this week. wtf?
i don't have anything else

van cortlandt park yesterday. parking there blowwwsssssss. we had to walk through the forest, which was very lovely, that was infested with ticks and bugs and so on and so forth. they say there were about 3000 people there. i can not argue otherwise. the coronation march was first and it was terrif! i was humming along. the bugs did not start to eat me until after intermission. after the show they had fireworks! spectacular. pretty fucking cool stuff they did with them. nothing like the ones stupid white plains puts on for the 4th of july. so good. had to walk through the forest again. in the dark. but they set up lights. and had cops stationed throughout. but they all formed little gangs and spent more time talking than protecting.
last show was tonight. tear. tim, you are gonna loveee this. so after the first show, this woman comes up to me and says that it was a really good show and that she enjoyed it. "aww thank you." "but, there was something pretty bad about it". here i go thinking i messed up a cue and she caught it or some crap like that. "oh?" "they said church. by saying church, you just made the show more christian. they could have just said 'they were married'. there wasn't a need to say church" "oh well". i have no idea how i remained calm and not say anything. i knew it wouldn't fly with joan but seriously, wtf? i was completely caught off guard with that one.the look on my face told her that. there's a fucking friar in the show and she's bitching about the word "church". i really wish i was wearing the star of david. i totally forgot until after she left, but i was wearing a button that read "satan works for me now". i hope she saw it. seriously, i was floored. i didn't know what to say.i really wonder if she was under the influence of something. when i told karina, she said next time she'll make sure everyone is wearing giant crosses. people. god. oops. using the lord's name in vain. jesus christ. OOPS, i did it again.
after the second show, i got a lovely bouquet from my friends. awwwwwwwwww. thanks guys for coming.
and we're having a staff meeting at some point because i talked to the boss of my bosses (super boss) and told her a run down of the probs we're having with boss 1 and 2. i guess i'm the designated representative. no one has balls anymore.
one out the three are leaving. that means there's only one i can stand left. booooooo. hopefully the replacement won't be a dick. or overweight. maybe it'll be a chick! highly doubtful.
this warmness, blows.i don't agree.
the night before the first day of camp i went to bed at 8:30pm. no joke. be amazed.
there's a precipice at the end of our driveway. i asked my parents if i could fill it with water and make a moat since the city put a little bridge over it. they didn't answer so i take their silence as a yes.
we can't find the dog because she's afraid of thunder so she's hiding somewhere.

sooooo went to new jerkkkyyy today.only took one wrong turn on the way there. that's damn good. first time driving over the gw was greaaatt.my whole life, wendy has said nothing but bad things about the bridge. how she won't ever drive over it blah blah, so its made me paranoid. i was fine. that's because i rule. parking for starland was down the street so they had shuttle buses take us to the venue. it was so cute. all of us packed in school buses. awwwww. first and foremost i would like to say that no matter what the weather reports claimed, it was 110 degrees. hot as goddamn balls. lost a pound or two from sweating so much. first band was army of freshmen. i think i might have seen them before. i can't remember. not bad. they got my seal of approval. OH, there was a girl there that didn't have a hand but a stump. reminded me of the dude in that band that opened for dropkick in buff. sean would remember. so they were good. second band was the best band ever, transition. can't forget the long haired blonde. ummmm still sweating. starting to burn even though i put a buttload of spf 50 on. i finally got some color so the girls at camp can stop saying i'm too pale to be puerto rican. my shins got burned. they're starting to hurt now. sunscreen = my new favorite travel companion. they had really good italian ices.i don't know who the third band was. fake knife? something like that. they were funny. probably drunk. 4th was lucky boys companion? i think i got the name right. they kept alternating stages between the main one and the local one. the show would have been a lot more enjoyable if they took out the local stage. and a lot more quicker. after punchline, we left. the heat was wayyyyyyy too unbearable and i was not dying for streetlight manifesto and mxpx. its what, 7:08pm right now and mxpx is either going on just now or at 7:30. sorry timothy. there'll be other times to see them. punchline was sooooo good. "see those people in the center? what they're doing isn't moshing. its rain dancing". really enjoyed them and their new stuff. some people were wearing pants. i almost fainted for them. some people went shirtless who should not have been. it takes a little over an hour to get home. it took us 2.5. i have a request. would all you cashers out there, people who use cash at toll booths, get a fucking ez pass. its your fault that there's traffic. eff you. big time. was not pleased.
i'm going to long island this coming weekend to see erin and rickyyyy. hurray! two hours and long island traffic. hurray!!!!!
there is the giraffe and now the sea horse. speaking of, i was on myspace, read some blogs, and giggled, and then shook my head.
the last show is tuesday. i'm so sad. i'm going to miss being complimented. best cast ever. :-(
oh, clips are great to have handy when you have bangs. i'm taking out stock.
i'm half way to my goal on facebook.
one love bitches.

things that are not cool- traffic caused by people going slow to look at an accident. the whole right side of the car was essentially gone along with the roof. veryyyyyyyy doubtful anyone survived. the bowery ballroom is okay. i don't disapprove. i figured i just don't like chinatown or the entire area in general. roseland, bb king's and the nokia theatre are so much better because they're within walking distance of grand central. no subways needed. i don't know who the first band was. they had fire in their name. there was maybe 15 people watching them. one of the security guards did push ups while they played. dave from the explosion was there. he was in the crowd head banging. ummm so the fire band gets off. the loved ones come on. i don't know. it wasn't a good show but it wasn't bad either. it was just okay. i expected mr.dave hause to be a douchebag but he wasn't. "come on guyss, you're acting like you're from connecticut." "is it because you're tired from today's game?". i tried to take as many pictures as i could without getting caught. i figured i wasn't going to have a good time because i'm still on a high from the panic! show (who i desperately want to see again) but that wasn't it. the crowd wasn't really in to it and neither were the guys. so almost as soon as they got on stage, they got off. maybe at another time and another place with different bands, it'd be a good show. tonight was blah. i stayed and watched the bronx. they came out to a good song. if i were in a band, i'd come out to either the star wars theme or eminem's "lose yourself". the singer was so funny. he had alcohol in him. the guy in front of me would not let his hand touch anything but his girlfriend's ass. i didn't stick around for lifetime. maybe one of the shortest shows ever.
after england got out, i stopped paying attention to the world cup. except for today's game. for those of you who missed it (and that's a small number because everyone becomes a soccer fan just for the world cup), zidane head butted materazzi in the chest. it wasn't like in the movies where he head butted him in the face, he didn't punch or kick him. he head butted him. in the chest. the chest. bravo. he got sent off and italy won. i wonder what materazzi said to get himself head butted to the ground. did he pull a yo mamma joke?hmmmmmmmmmmm.
i think i’m gonna take up smoking. just socially of course. the hardest part of being straightedge (caffeine excluded because who counts that?) is not temptation orrrrr feeling left out. its the disappointment and disgust for other people.
11:11 is my favorite time of day as well. both times. people debated whether or not the glass was half full or half empty. but what a gay tattoo and a gay band. love the nips though. but seriously, it’s the hottest tattoo on the hottest arm of the hottest body. the arm looks like a boy arm. he’s emo, but no one is perfect. and hey, we thought we were punk rock. archie star = loveeeee omgggeeeeeeeee
i'm rambling to see how long i can make this without doing a survey.
all this week i heard how awesome and amazing i am. i even got my girls to start saying it. speaking of, this year's group is the dumbest i've had yet. its official that kids are getting dumber. but anyway, my ego is huge. that will change once school starts.
fort hills is going great. its the cast and the director and joan that keep telling me how great i am. i smile, tell them nooooo, and do that little hand flip.

nokia theatre is pretty f ing sweet. really really really nice. i like. its now my second favorite venue. its in nyc and not UPSTATE. its so convenient living close to the city and not like 5 hours away. i win. game over.SOOO the show was friggin phenomenal. omg omg omg o.m.g. wow. just wow. it rained during the power walk from grand central to times square. i bought an umbrella but then it stopped. it started up again whilst i waited at mtv for my anti-you. go in and chill in the really nice venue that wasn't the knitting factory and not upstate. her friend rachel came. she's a nice scarsdalian and lives like 5 minutes away. she also goes to candlelight frequently. she knows some dubps. small world.jenna's gum got stuck to some girl's butt. i wished i had stripped leggings with holes in them and a mini skirt so i could fit in with all the -15 yr. olds. mayra r. was there! haven't seen her in like forever. she remembered i went to fredonia and i was shocked. the first band, hush sound, or whatever, was...i don't know actually. not good. we were outside in the lobby or the lounge or whatever l word you want to call it up until panic! came on. except we went in for like one dresden doll song but then we left. i wanted to like them but i just couldn't get into it. jenna absolutely positively did not enjoy the dresden dolls. when they played coin operated boy i texted ron and he called me so i went in so he could hear. he was drinking. he lives in chautauqua, now. eesh.they get off and PANIC! AT THE MOTHERFUCKING DISCO COMES ON! i was so pumped for this show and it was nothing short of amazing. wow wow wow wow. one of the best shows ever! too bad tomorrow is sold out because i'd so go again. saw some other dubps. i've never been to a show where i've known more than 1 other person. i don't like going to shows with people most of the time but this one i'm glad i did. what a dance party. they had a really nice backdrop with lights. AND CABERET DANCERS. basically all the costumes in the videos, they had on stage. maybe not the same exact actor/dancers but there were people just like that. reminded me of the gogol bordello show. 1. the only difference between....2.boys will be boys 3.london beckoned... 4.camisado 5. nails for breakfast... 6.lying is the most fun... 7.but it's better if you do 8.i write sins not tragedies 9.smashing pumpkins cover of tonight tonight 10.there's a good reason these.... 11.i constantly thank god for esteban 12.build god, then we'll talk. just wow. god. man. sweet. they had a cello player. i was happy. and really wanted to play. they all bowed at the end. dancers and band. it was better than a night of hardcore sex. i would know. and i hated them at first. now i love them ALMOST as much as gc. that's big. almost though. just almost. afterwards, i ran into feather (who's m name is masturbation. compliements of morgan) who had just gotten out of rent with her mom. times square was hoppin.
speaking of feather, her grad party wasn't as awkward as her bday party. there was a mean game of knock out. i'm an in the closet basketball star. i know i know. i'm great. oh and daniel was there!
orientation sucked wed. orientation sucked today. orientation will suck tomorrow. rehearsal wed night was sooooo funny. suzanne accidently pantsed richard. and they're the adults.
note- according to mary, even more dubps were at the show.
and the fireworks were cancelled so i get to see them afterall.

this is what you do when your foot almost gets chopped off-
blue m lax: put some ice on it
blue m lax: and a bandage
blue m lax: and some neosporin
blue m lax: and take some druggies
blue m lax: that is all

i had this conversation with maggie the first week i got home-
WakeMaggieUp: how do you say haha in spanish
Nutcase2818: ....haha
Nutcase2818: puta
WakeMaggieUp: puta?
Nutcase2818: yea, haha in spanish is puta
WakeMaggieUp: really?
Nutcase2818: yup
WakeMaggieUp: so spaniards dont say "haha" when they laugh... they say "puta puta puta puta"?
Nutcase2818: that is correct
Nutcase2818: but only spaniards
Nutcase2818: not the other hispanics
WakeMaggieUp: that's very interesting
Nutcase2818: they're weird folk
WakeMaggieUp: lol yeah
WakeMaggieUp: i mean
WakeMaggieUp: puta puta si
Nutcase2818: hahaha very good

and i had this one with her today-
WakeMaggieUp: heyyy did you trick me about the word puta
WakeMaggieUp: puta means bitch or whore or fuck
Nutcase2818: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH took you long enough
Nutcase2818: it means bitch
WakeMaggieUp: haha
WakeMaggieUp: that's funny
Nutcase2818: how'd you find out
WakeMaggieUp: i heard someone talking about it and then i looked it up
Nutcase2818: my friend mary and i have been waiting for you to find out

that made my day. she went about a month thinking that. it looks like quotebook number three will be done shortly.

show was enjoyable. there was a guy from the bouncing souls concert there. i recognized his hideous green coat. while in line waiting to get in, the lesbian couple in front of me was making out. there was a guy with his pants past his ass. not half way on, but completely and totally off. what a waste. there was also a guy who looked like the bass player? from transition. the one with the long blonde hair. wasn't him. just a look alike. ew. outernational was first. i found them agreeable. there were more 15- year olds than i expected. they moshed a lot. stupid. i wished sean attended because he would have had fun just like at the mest concert. i spoke to him today. it made me happy. i did not like the second band, dub trio, one bit. i would have preferred to stand through a something corporate set and that's saying something because i detest those goddamn hippies. speaking of, there were goth hippies and they made me uneasy. one couple was...i don't know if you would call it dancing....they were doing some form of grinding and boy were they into it.they were more entertaining then dub trio. finally they get off the stage and kultur shock came on. not too shabby at all. they had a belly dancer from japan. their bass player is from japan. in fact, there was only one american in the group. eugene from gogol bordello (also star of everything is illuminated which is the movie version of the book which we read in supa which was taught by CROOONNKKK) came on for a couple of the songs. he kicked his cup of whatever he was drinking into the crowd. i want whatever he has to have his kind of energy. crazy. gogol bordello was aweessomeeeeee. i liked. a lot. they were on stage for about an hour and a half. one of the longest shows ever. i was exhausted afterwards. i'm most likely leaving stuff out but whatev. the whole place was purple for "start wearing purple". hard to get pictures because the whole band was allll over the place. bananas.
mary and i went searching for east white plains. turns out its just west harrison. depends on what map you're looking at but when we went to the area expedia said was east white plains, it was all signs for west harrison. bullshit.so we went to north white plains. that does exist. for like a block. there's proof. its posted.
tonight was all giggles.
trinidad and tobago vs. sweden = nutssss. wow. did not expect that. fuckkkkk baseball. won't even get into how soccer is so much better. BUT! how many more teams across the world play in the world cup than in the world series? that's what i thought. again, fuck baseball.
i'm not going to the puerto rican day parade. i'll watch it on tv and wear my shirt and bracelet to represent.
p.s. i really like bullets and octane.
p.p.s mary is cooler than your mother.
p.p.p.s wendy finally admitted that i'm adopted. finally.
p.p.p.p.s fuck rain. fuck shoes. fuck bees. fuck dane.literally.
p.p.p.p.p.s i need a massage and ron's too far away. :-(

right off the bat, i hate the knitting factory. if i have ever said anything good about it, i take it back. i never liked that place and i will never like that place. i dread going there no matter who is playing. so i arrive. all of the explosion minus damien is outside smoking, chitchatting, the usual. 2ft away from me. no i don't approach them. i am an idiot. BUT i'm sure there will be other times. they practically live there. go in. the new bathrooms are very nice indeed. there aren't 50 million health code violations. while waiting for the first band, they played "drastic". nice. i couldn't tell you who the opening band was. didn't care. i have no opinion of them, that's how much i cared. the explosion were great as usual. only played like two songs off of black tape. the rest were old and new. a lot of new. i liked. "hey, all eyes on me." "i hear all this chatting, i hope its good". so, bouncing souls came out to "the number of the beast" by iron fucking maiden. i don't really like maiden. it was a joke that started in the 10th grade and lasted through until like the middle of junior year. "up the irons". too bad that i no longer converse with the people i had the joke with because that would have been funny to share. soooooo they entered to that and i was blessed with standing next to an iron maiden fan (i know this because he was wearing the trooper shirt) and he was reallllllyyyyyyyy into it. it was probably the most intense set i've ever witnessed. crowd wise. and in such a tiny area too. the gold song was the first one they played. twas good. greg was wearing a gold jacket. he eventually threw it into the crowd and a game of tug of war ensued. one of the guys got an exacto knife out of his bag and cut a sleeve off and proceeded to cut more pieces off of that to give out. how sweet. oh so they added a 5th member.
a Mr.Dave Hause from some band called The Loved Ones. WHO ARE COMING TO THE BOWERY BALLROOM!!!!!!HURRAY!!!!!!!!!anyway, the show was great. they ended with true believers. about 75% of the crowd got up on stage for it. like i said, intense.
p.s. since when is there an east white plains? mary and i were looking at a map of westchester county and there it was. who the hell lives in east white plains??wtf?